I'm currently sitting in the Contemporary Resort at Disney World. I have a Coke (shock) and I'm typing on my iPad as monorails pass by. Is this life crazy or what? It most definitely is. I can't believe I get to be here. Think about it: I'm at a worship conference with some fabulous worship leaders and pastors. And it's at Disney World. Does it get any better?
But it's not even about that. Let me clarify what I mean. Vacations are fun and everyone enjoys going away a few days. Whether it's Disney or camping in the woods, we all enjoy it. But it's the time with God I'm enjoying. Now I'm not getting all super spiritual in some unrealistic way with you, or building myself up. Trust me...I've been having fun just doing stuff too! But back home, my worship is always paired with responsibility; my Bible times followed shortly by a meeting; my times of reflection constantly interrupted. When I'm here, I have no weight on my shoulders. No one stopping me to chat or interrupting prayer with a meeting. I've been sitting here for 50 min 'alone'...there are people all around me, but none talking to me! That never happens back home. I can get some time here and there of course, but not 3 days of this. Or even 3 hours.
So now to you. Do you get these times? I know all of us can't go away on work to something like this. And three days is crazy hard to find alone. But what about two hours? Or one? No phone. No interruptions. No one around. God wants to spend time with you. Just you. I have to remember this all the time, and it's one of the things God is reminding me of this week. He loves my family and He loves watching me love them. He loves my job and He loves watching me work hard and do my best. He loves being worshipped and seeing His children sing together on the weekends.
But He loves me too. Just Brian. And just like I love one-on-one time with my son Caden and my son Chase, He loves one-on-one time with me. The problem is my life doesn't always fit in the alone time necessary to just be me and Him. It would be like bringing my friend Junior to the lunch my dad and I had at Portillo's two weeks ago. My dad likes Junior a lot, and would love to hang out with him. But don't you think he would be a little sad if that's all he ever got? Or what of I had brought my iPad and worked most of the lunch. "Hey dad, this person really needs me. Just keep eating."
I'm getting convicted right now. You know why? Because I told God I'd spend some time with Him and here I am writing a blog. No joke. And some not planned big ending. Just hit me now. Gotta go.
